The moment we get through our 12th Board Exams the first thing that comes into our mind is "SHIT!!! We are gonna go to college, COLLEGE... So cool". If my experience is anything to go by this is the worst illusion one can have. I, much like lot of people I know, was misguided into thinking college was a cool place where you go to to chill and make friends and be grown-ups. All thanks to films like Kuch Kuch Hota Hai and the other serials and stuff which were nothing but mere mirages.
When I got my 12th marksheet I was elated; a cool 77% (considering the fact I was never a genius, 77% meant a lot), I could get through a GOOD college and lead the GOOD life. I could'nt have been more mistaken. The irony was that even though the colleges were considering best of 4 subjects, which meant my percentage shot up to an 82, I got rejected EVERYWHERE. Reason- my caste, creed, board etc etc ; stuff that Literature or in fact education had nothing to do with.
As I had run out of options I got admitted into one of the lesser known colleges of Kolkata, where my only two consolations were the faculty and the fact that the name of the college would not be mentioned on my degree.
For me the biggest issue was adjusting. Something that took me 2 years. So by the time i adjusted it was the time to leave. The adjustment problem was mainly due the environment. I mean with all due respect, I never knew girls could get so catty. That is something one does'nt realise in co-ed schools. I faced some serious problems but now (touchwood) things are better. Transition is tough but to accept the changes it brings along is far tougher.
As I get by each day hoping to get through quicker, I discovered that college was never cool. It was just a rude medley of the life to come. College will give you one of the worst experiences of your life but if you're lucky enough you will find moments to last you a lifetime. As for me I got a bit of both. The ratio..umm...read this and take a guess.
Until Then
Keep Living :)
Suhasini, colleges are educational institutions....and you go there to study. Since my college lets us do a lot of things besides... (which I personally DO NOT like or support). I see my peers wasting their precious time with all this...and I can do nothing but be sorry for them. I'd gladly trade places with you today if I could. I don't want to belong to place, where EVERYTHING feels so wrong to me. :)Great writing by the way! Keep up the good work. :D
ReplyDeletenot that i want all that but yes a happy friends group... not too much to ask for :)
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